Busy busy busy

So the past couple days have been kind of crazy. I just cant explain it. My sister has taken charge of my baby shower plans, which is good because other wise the planning wouldn't of even began yet. She has been on the ball with everything, she's already got the invitations ordered and is waiting for me to get her all the addresses... That's been stressful! I never thought that getting a couple of peoples name's and addresses together, the only problem is is that there's more than just a couple people to invite and we dont want to forget anyone. I think that I've got the list complete and only have a couple more addresses to get before I can email that list to Missy. The other nightmare has been the registries. I never thought that it would be that hard, I was flipping between the three registry websites and was trying to find the best deal on single item and trying to find the best of the best of everything, even down to the onesies, socks, etc. That was taking forever!! Missy and Eden, well mainly Eden :), has been adding stuff faster than I can think of it because she knows what I am going to forget or not know to add. So other than the stress of the planning of the baby shower, I'm freaking out about going to work tomorrow. Tomorrow is my first day at my new job. All this coming week I work 12-6 and am extremely nervous. I dont know what to expect. I'm hoping that it is everything that I want it to be and then some. I dont know exactly what I will be doing, I'm guessing that I will be put where ever that they need me to be. I know that I'm not going to be scrubbing toilets or anything but I'm sure there will be some diaper changing being done : / I'm pretty nervous and I think that my little girl can since that. She has been more active than usual tonight. :) I'm loving it though... WISH ME LUCK TOMORROW :) :) :) :)

Another little update

A pic of the hair cut will be up as soon as I can take a shower and do something with it. About the job... I haven't decided whether or not I am taking the job. I was supposed to get a tb test Tuesday, get it read Thursday and start my job on Friday. I didn't get my tb test on Tuesday because of the blizzard that we had. I got the test done on Wednesday and go back this evening. Well, I haven't decided completely whether or not I am going to take it. For the immature anonymous person that reads my blog and thinks that I am living off the taxes of people that actually work. I'm sorry but your wrong. I am not going to get worked up over someone that wont even confront me for who you are but as anonymous... GAY and GROW THE HELL UP, if your older and supposedly mature, then freaking show it!! I know that the job is going to be good for me, even if it is just part time. I'll be getting out of the house everyday, more than going to feed the horses, I'll be getting experience with children, and I'll have a job (For only three months, but at least I'll have my foot in the door and have a job for when I'm ready to go back to work) But for the anonymous one, my boyfriend thinks that I should stay home and collect unemployment (Yes, for those of you who actually work and pay taxes). But when I worked 70 hours a week this summer, I paid out plenty of freaking taxes, I am now getting back in unemployment. My boyfriend that fishes almost every single day from January to January, gets the shit taxed out of him, along with the other fisherman that live and work in the fishing village of the sinking island that I live on. He just see's it as getting his taxes back every week, through me. Well, I'm getting part of what he pays out in taxes every week. It would be better for me to stay home with the baby full time rather than working part time and having to pay for day care when I cant even see my daughter all day. Unemployment or no unemployment, he would rather have me home with our daughter. I have agreed up until now when it just hit me that I need a new car and unemployment isn't that great. I'm still trying to find one that is baby safe and not horrible on gas either. Even if I do find a suv for me and my youngin, that doesn't mean that I'll be able to afford it or the insurance, along with my other bills. So I would like all of you to know as of this moment, I am on schedule to work part time at Children's Workshop in Nags Head. I've heard that many of the employee's there don't like working there but that is something I will have to decide for myself. Basically my doc said that I could have my little girl up to two weeks early. If I have her two weeks early she could come as soon as April 18th, that is less than three months away. So if I completely hate this job then I am going to stick it out for as much as the three months that I am able to work, then I will have my little one, stay home for at least a month, month and a half, with her, then either find a full time, Monday -Friday job or just go back to Fisherman's Wharf and hopefully not have to work too many nights and weekends. I would love to be a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) to experience that especially after reading Eden's blog and all the lovely comments on her post but I would also love to work a full time 9-5 job so that I can spend every night and weekend with my little girl. I'm sure that Chad will be making more than enough to support all three of us and all of the bills, including mine but I would like to be an independent woman like my mother is and not have to rely on a man for anything. I mean, even if I do go back to work after I have my baby girl, full or part time, Chad is most likely going continue to pay all the bills. I would use my money for little things that I think that I can't live with out, buy a car, or put the money in the bank for safe savings :) So this is the update on the job deal. So to the anonymous one... I hope you are happy although I did not make this decision with your opinion in mind...at all. Comments please :)

Update on the good news...

Ok, so last Thursday was a pretty busy day. I had a doctors appointment in the morning, which went well. I got my eyebrows done with Casey, went to lunch at whites in Manns Harbor with Casey and Drew, got to see a couple older friends, then came home and decided that I wanted to chop all my hair off, so I did that right before I had to leave to go to my interview. To say the least by the time I got home I was way tired and ready to just lay down and relax. I think Chad actually made dinner this night too, I cant remember though. The doc said that little miss was an active little thing this particular morning, could the ice cream and brownies for breakfast have something to do with it? Since my last visit with him, a month ago, I have gained 14 lbs. My mom asked if this HUGE weight gain was a problem or if it was normal. He said it was fine, some people dont gain much weight at the beginning then play catch up... like I did, but he did say that I shouldn't gain 14 lbs in a month again. I couldn't get over my 14 lbs and it really didn't help when my lovely mother just so kindly reminded me that 14 lbs is only 3, 5 lbs bag of potatoes. Picture that, please!! Picture 3 big bag of baking potatoes or red potatoes... Ahhh, thats like A LOT of, a lot of... ahhh!! Well, the rest of the day was spent with Casey which was good but I should of been home doing laundry and other things around the house. So I came home and right before I should of jumped in the shower to get ready for the interview I decided to call Rosie, the lady that cuts my hair sometimes, and she said I could come right then to get my hair cut. I got there and decided to get 5 or 6 inches cut off. I said the hell with it, it will grow back. My hair was so dead on the ends that I needed to cut a fair amount off. Now, a couple days later, I think that I like it. Chad doesn't like it because he liked my longer hair. Well, I rushed to the interview, which, like the rest of my day so far, went well. I was so excited when she said that I have the job. I am still hesitant to start working there though. I still need to get my tb test done so I cant start until Friday at the earliest. I've tried to weigh out the pro's and cons about this job. I am making a good amount on unemployment right now that will last until March and then I will try to get an extension on that. If I cant get an extension on that then I will be a month and a half to two months with no income on my half coming in, which is not good. But if I do take the job then I will have a job until I cant work any longer but I wont be making half as much as unemployment, which isn't great but I will be getting experience with youngings and I will have my foot in the door at the daycare which I will be able to return to as soon as I am ready. This job will only part time (20 to 30 hours a week) and I will be getting seven dollars an hour which obviously sucks!! If I take a cpr and first aid class I will get a raise and if I take a class at coa then I will get a bigger raise and be able to be a teacher as well. So I need the money of unemployment to get some bills paid before this younging comes. I also need this job. I wont be making as much but I think that I will be making enough to get my monthly bills paid. I definatly need to get my foot in the door so that I will have a job when I'm ready for it and the experience with all the different age groups is just what I need. Maybe since this job is just part time and I waited two months before I got any unemployment I will still be able to get something from them as well as working part time. Who knows. I am going to get the tb test Tuesday and they will read it on Thursday, and I will start at the day care on Friday as long as the tb test is negative. I've heard of people testing positive for tb even though they dont have it, they are just carriers of it. So we will see how the tb test goes and how my first day goes as well. I will be calling the unemployment office first thing Tuesday morning to see what we can do. After all this rambling I'm sure there are some pro's and cons that I haven't mentioned. Ya'lls opinions are more that welcome. I think I'm going to take the job, even though the money is better sitting on my butt at home but the experience is needed as well. That's all the rambling that I'll be doing today. I want to lay on my couch for the rest of the after noon but I think I'm going to make cup cakes and I'm definitely making dinner easy tonight. I am making our favorite dinner, corn beef with cabbage and potatoes. It takes forever to cook but is well worth it. Since Chad is fishing and no one knows when they will be getting home, I'm going to start cooking that soon so that it will be done around 5 or 6ish. I'm going to let it cool then put it in the fridge so that if he gets home at 11:30 like last night, then he can heat it up and eat it then, with out waking me up :) I will be going now... everyone have a good day and please feel free to leave opinions, they will be appreciated.

FABULOUS NEWS!!!

Ok, so after not working since November and fighting with the unemployment office for two months, which feels like a lifetime when you dont have any money coming in but the bills seem to be coming in twice as fast, I finally get my unemployment debit card a few days ago with five weeks worth of unemployment on it. I was sooo excited! I got my cell phone bill paid, my horse board caught up, and still have money for coming bills to be paid as they come in. I wanted to go out to dinner the other night and I told Chad that I'd pay since I had money for a change but he informed me that that money was for bills only. I cant go out to eat, shopping for clothes or groceries, get my nails done, none of that, unless I used his money... but hey, I'm not complaining about that! That way I know that if nothing else comes out of this unemployment, at least my bills will be paid. So that's part of the good news, now for the news that I almost pee'd in my pants when I got the call. Well since in November when my schedule at Fisherman's Wharf got cut way back, I went job hunting with no success. I basically gave up on a job and decided to benefit from unemployment for as long as I could, have the baby, then go to work after that. Well, this morning after running some errands with my mom I was on my way home from her house and my phone rang. Du du dunnn... I recognized the number but wasn't quite sure who it was. I was hesitant to answer but I did. I usually dont answer numbers that I dont know but I did earlier this morning and it was an old friend telling me that he was back in town and had his life straight. Sober since Sept 3rd. I was and still am so proud! Back to the unknown number. I answered it and it was a lady from Children's Workshop, a daycare center in Nags Head. (http://www.childrensworkshopchildcare.com/index.html) I had put my application in at the beginning of November and they had finally needed some help, and soon! I just wish that they would of called a couple months ago. Oh well, I may lose my unemployment if I get the job but at lease I got 5 weeks worth already and maybe I'll get a couple more weeks of it before they take it away from me. So I have an interview on Thursday and am soooo excited. I know a few people that work there and they love it. Of course there's always something to complain about but its alright, I can deal! Since I found out that I was prego, I wanted to get a Monday through Friday 8-5 job so that I can be home with my baby at night and on the weekends. This job may be from 7:30 till 3:30 or maybe 9 till 6 or 6:30 but it will still be a Monday through Friday full time job. I'm trying not to count my eggs before they hatch but it's hard when I'm so excited. As long as I'll be making as much if not more that what I'm getting on unemployment I will definitely take the job. I definitely need the experience with children and diapers and such and this is the perfect opportunity to do so. Not only will I be making some money and getting experience but I will be getting out of the house. I've sat in this house for over two months now, I cant do it anymore! Yes, that may be the only thing I'll want to do in a few months but right now I'm ready to work. I mean, you cant wash dishes and laundry if they aren't dirty, I cant rearrange the house and clean but so much, and I cant just sit here and eat all day, I am prego but I am getting wayyy tooo fattt for being just 24 weeks prego. I've heard that daycares wont hire expecting mothers because they dont want the child to come back to work with them and for other reasons as well. I told the lady that I spoke to that I was expecting but would love the job. I told her that I would work until I went into labor and then waddle across the street to the hospital, have the youngin', then come back to work. I didn't use those exact words but pretty close, she laughed and agreed that it was possible. I know that I'm not going to get laid off or fired when I get a little bigger which is a relief. I may only be able to work at this job for three or four months before I have the little one but I am so willing to go back to work as soon as I am ready and I know that my baby will be right there with me which is nice! So basically I am super excited. That is part of the good news! When I got home and told Chad that I may have a job and told him all about it, he said the same thing that my mom said and asked if I'd make as much at that job as I am on unemployment. Ok, my unemployment is not like 500 a week or anything like that but it is a good amount for doing nothing at all, ya know. I'm almost positive that I will make more at this job than unemployment is giving me every week. After I told Chad my good news, he told me that he had good news for me as well. He never says that he has good news for me, he may tell me good news but he never gets me excited about it first. I was informed that he is not going to be long lining this summer. At first I was like what the heck Chad, you need to work, someone in this family needs to work. Well for those of you that dont know, when Chad goes long lining, he stays in the ocean for 4 or 5 days/nights at a time, comes home for a day or two, if that, then he's gone for another 4 or 5 days/nights. I asked what he planned on doing then. I didn't know if he was going to work at the jail like he's been talking about or if he was going to be a truck driver since he's in the process of getting his CDL. I was glad to hear that he is going to stick with what he loves and keep fishing. This summer he's going to be charter fishing with Copper (A really nice man) on a sporty type boat and when they dont have a fishing charter, they will be tile fishing on Copper's commercial boat. So Chad will be working almost everyday and will be home with the baby and I every night. Worse comes to worse, he may stay in the ocean for a night or two at the most but that's a whole lot better than staying in the ocean for 4 or 5 nights!! Sooo YAY to me for my good day. Now I'm going to bake brownies to celebrate! I'm super excited! Wish me luck everyone!!

Reality Check

So I have been moaning and groaning about a little headache, sore throat, runny nose, and a cough mean while a great friend of the family has been suffering from much much more. Long story short, I am no longer bitching about not feeling good for a day or two, I am going to be grateful that I am a healthy, soon to be mom, with very little to worry about compared to others. I could sit here and type a huge list of things to complain about not one of the complaints on my list would be anywhere close to other's problems. So before you complain about a broken nail, being late for work, or a tummy ache, how about you take a minute or two about people right down the street from you that may not have a warm place to sleep at night, a meal to eat, a job to go to in the morning, etc. Maybe their problems aren't that but are still worse than yours. If you cant tell I'm trying not to tell the world about my family friend's problems, but I am trying to make a couple points to myself and anyone that is reading this. Live one day at a time and live it like it is your last. Never take anything for granted, not a single breath. Stop complaining about the little things that may bug you for a day or two and think about others more often. Thank the good Lord for every morning that you wake up and every night that you have a good meal in your belly and a warm bed to climb into. You never know what you have until it's gone, but when some one close to you has a wake up call like this, that you may think doesn't deserve it, it hits you too! As ya'll can tell, a close friend, that does nothing but good for everyone around her has recently received some bad news that she doesn't deserve at all and it's hit me hard. Everyone please take two seconds out of your day to pray for everyone that needs a little prayer.

Its been a while...

So I haven't posted anything since last year and I think now is a good time to do it. I'm testing out my new prego tickers that I'm trying to get to come up at the end of each post. If it works, great, if not, oh well, I'm not stressing over it. I am now officially 23 weeks prego. My baby girl is will be the size of a papaya for another week or so. She is now able to hear outside noise from down in the womb. Studies show that baby finds gentle music and your own voice most soothing. Although my baby girl seems to like country music and a little bit of Ill Bill, basically the song that he did for Riya and Eden :) I'm in love with that song! Nipples are starting to sprout, and that little face is fully formed. And, she's starting to settle into sleep cycles, snoozing about 12 to 14 hours a day. When she's awake, I totally know it. I can finally feel those little jolting kicks from the outside of my belly, I have been feeling her move for a month or two but I've been feeling her kick from the outside of my belly. So far I'm the only one that's felt her, she wont really move for anyone else. I think it's so easy for me to feel her because I can feel her from the inside and out so I know when she's moving. Well I should go play with my scanner and get the ultra sound pics up from two weeks ago but then again I dont feel like it. I think I'm going to go lay on the couch with my pup because there's nothing better to do when your waiting on a phone call :( I know that he wont be to the dock until probably about 8:30 and then wont be home til about 10:30 or 11 so I may just take a nap and let the call wake me up. I made a pretty dank meatloaf (Well it smells and looks great but then again I haven't cooked it yet so I still have the chance to burn it or mess it up some how) but hopefully he will want micky d's for dinner tonight and I'll throw the meatloaf in the oven tomorrow night.